how do we pick the missing pieces?

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I've told some people this...I don't write when I'm emotional, I write when I am stable, when all hormones have balanced and when I reach the trough of denseness and numbness after an emotional whirlwind.

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Yesterday, I was at starbucks libis for around three to four hours, trying to check the APS 102 longtests while drowning myself in memories and thoughts.

When I glanced outside the glasswalls, I realized I was sitted in a very strategic and meaniful position because one of those advertising shops across the road was named ...NICO... at least from my vantage point. Weird, i thought! Now there goes the fate I've been waiting, there goes destiny and here comes the sign! The shop was named differently but because I was sitted where I was sitted, NICO was what I saw, how weird can that be?!?

Then of course I started a rampage of sweet nothings to Nico, bothering him at work but getting very satisfying responses nevertheless, I guess he was happy as well to feel so lighthearted from my texts.

That plus other things swirled through my mind as I allowed myself to be immersed in a montaige of events that have just happened to me, events which I wanted to happend and events which I just thought could or would happen.

Suddenly, I felt that I am actually nearing a crossroads in my life. Nico just texted me this morning saying that he decided to stop table tennis for awhile. "Very timely", i thought considering that after this week, I'll be done with Clytemnestra.

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And so I wondered (in a very Sex and the City, Carrie kind of way...) how does one handle BIG transitions in life? How long should we get attached to something that has been part of us?

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The last time I felt this way was when some of my cousins from Australia and Canada came over and I brought them to Sagada in December 2003. I remeber "The Return of the King" helped me move on...

But how about this? Should I just not attend the victory party? Now, we still have four more shows to go and I'm missing every bit of it already!!!!